T.R.O.Y.

I came to a conclusion today and i rather hate it. Pretty much all of my memories from senior year at home are stuck in the song Chicago Is So Two Years Ago by Fall Out Boy. I know that seems sad by most peoples standards, but I loved that album that year. I still do. I have no idea what it is about that one song that just brings everything back cause it’s like… I got so much new music in that year. Why this one song from not my favorite album by not my favorite band (maybe >.>)?

I cant really explain it. But just the vibe and the feel of the song it just hits me. Markham is so one year ago, but i still think about it every day.

Cry for help

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD SOMEBODY MOTIVATE ME! I HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT SIT ON THIS COMPUTER AND LISTEN TO THE SAME MUSIC, POST ON THE SAME SITE, AND TALK TO THE SAME PEOPLE. KICK MY ASS, FORCE ME OUT THE HOUSE, ANYTHING!

cause its obvious i cant do it for myself

I Don’t Understand It (nothing to do with Big L)

Kick, push came up on this cd. I remember a couple months ago when I was out skatig with my friend and i really felt the lyrics to this song. Igot to thinking about that day we were out kating til like 9 at night. Found like 3 new skate spots that day. Fucking grandma already got a start on putting me BACK IN SCHOOL and i just graduated 2 days ago. This summer school shit is gonna last all the way past my birthday so god knows if i’ll ever get to enjoy being out of school or if im doomed to be stuck behind a school desk until she decides to ut me behind a work desk for the rest of my life. If im supposed to be such a fucking adult now then howcome im not allowed to decide anything for myself?

local weather status (lock)

what its like outside my house

Status Update

Things chilled out a bit for me, but in a way, they havent. Mentally im chill, but there is hella shit i should be worrying about. I got school, prom, homework, just shit to think about, but i dont think about nothin. I guess thats kind of a good thing i dont get stressed out. Some people wish they could say that. But the thing is i dont worry, sometimes even think, about a lot of shit that i need to. I shouldnt have done this. Im startin to worry…

p.s.

Random 1

Been a while. Ive listened to really nothing but smif n wessun, eminem, and onyx for about 3 days.

Theres a convo goin on about books/movies n shit. The kinda thing i should be into. But yeah quietly ignoring the book i have to read and th epaper i have to write.

Album Rec 1

aight theres not gonna be a lot of these so appreciate what i do post. ya dig?

aight this here album is Connected by Foreign Exchange. Phonte spittin the raps, Nicolay on the beat. The whole album is very chill, probably why i got stuck listening to it twice tonight. Overall this album is very good. This rec isnt gonna be all long n shit cause its almost 3 am and im hungry and tired as fuck. Just trust me on this and cop it.

 

1. “Foreign Exchange Title Theme” 
2. “Von Sees” 
3. “Raw Life” 
4. “Hustle, Hustle” 
5. “Let’s Move” 
6. “Nic’s Groove” 
7. “Be Alright” 
8. “Sincere” 
9. “Brave New World” 
10. “The Answer” 
11. “Come Around” 
12. “Happiness” 
13. “Foreign Exchange End Theme” 
14. “All That You Are” 
15. “Be Alright” (Nicolay’s Easybreezy Sunday Afternoon Remix) 
16. “Call” 
17. “Downtime” (Nicky Troutman’s Bounce to the Ounce Remix)

Links for dat ass

Swallowed in the Sea

Im happy that it rained today. Less happy that i had to walk home in it, but i tried to enjoy it. I was just sitting here listening to swalloed by the sea by coldplay (…) adn i started to think about how much i like the smell of rain. The dropletts feel cool against my skin, but not so much against my glasses. I’d kinda give anthing to walk in the rain again like i did earlier. Except this time i wouldnt get completely soaked.

Untitled 3

Oi. Im just stuck. I had 3 days to type this 2 page paper. I have all the info, but i cant seem to put pen to pad, so to speak. I mean its an easy enough assignment but i cant bring myself to physically do it. Like theres a wall or some metaphorical shit keeping me from it. I dont think its the usual reason. I guess i just need some more time alone (as if i dont spend enough time alone already) to sort some shit out. Im so caught up in school and shit. I worry a lot about things that should be nothing to me. I fucking hate school. I just read my book and finish my game. I honestly have no idea whats wrong with me. Maybe nothing is. It might have just got beaten in my head just enough to stay. People are always saying im crazy or have some kind of whatever that needs fixing like i dont realize my flaws enough already. Fucking life man. IM depressed cause im lonely and have no idea on how to fix myself, but i’d rather be alone than be with the annoying fucks im surrounded by all day. I need to be literally alone. Nobody living near me for miles. The silence would be deafening, but its better that way. I guess that kind of thinking just proves that im meant to stay alone.

R.I.P.

I know this is late but i just got around to blogging about it. Last saturday was the last airing of Toonami on cartoon network. I seen a lot of cartoons come adn go but this one hit me the hardest. Ive been watching toonami for as long as i can remember. Like fuck my homework Tenchi Muyo is on. Man i dotn even know what to say. Ive been through it all and now its gone. DBZ to Naruto. Gundam to Samurai Jack. I rarely missed a Saturday. I cant even put into words how bad i feel about this. Just R.I.P. Whatever Cartoon Network decides to replace it with better be damn good.